The dude in the middle.
Needless to say, this past week has been rather eventful for us. With much anticipation, we welcomed the newest (and most likely last, consider this foreshadowing to an upcoming vasectomy post) child into this world. After much deliberation, the powers at be decided his name would be Graham Joseph Babcock.
We brought him home on Friday. I walked him around the house to give him a little tour of his new digs. I believe they were satisfactory as he spit up on me and then closed his eyes and went to sleep.
The first couple of days were spent trying to remember what this whole baby thing is all about. It has been nearly four years since we brought Jamison home so standard things like diaper changes and burping took a little remembering.
On Sunday, I took Berlin and Jamison to church so mother and Graham could have some much-needed nap time. The Bishop announced our new arrival. "The Babcock's have had their baby. His name is Graham and he was twelve pounds, seven ounces." A very sudden and audible gasp exploded from virtually every woman in the congregation. To which the Bishop squinted and replied, "I think I read that backwards."
Later that night, we were winding down from the day. Jamison had fallen asleep on the couch next to me. I picked him up to carry him upstairs to his bed. As his sleeping body dangled in my arms from walking up the stairs something hit me like a ton of bricks. His weight and body was in stark contrast to the new little body I had been carrying around for the past three days. And I realized that my little dude's entire role in life had been changed. He was no longer our baby. My heart exploded in hurt for him and I couldn't figure out why. I imagined him feeling less special and I couldn't bare the thought.
I laid him in his bed, fully clothed and pulled his sheets up. He squirmed around until he found a comfortable position. I sat down next to his bed and just stared at his silent face. And then the tears came. I don't know if they were tears because I didn't want him to grow up or if they were tears because I didn't want him to feel any less special or what. I mean, I know that it's rather standard for the mother's emotions to be all over the place after a pregnancy and that roller coasters and no-reason-breakdowns are fully expected. But fathers?
Well, hopefully I'm allowed at least one random emotional breakdown mulligan as a father.
Yesterday, the feeling still lingered inside me. So I took James on a full day of "special time." We went to the gym, then to the park and then to his favorite place for lunch, Buffalo Wild Wings. We ordered fried pickle slices and had "fun drinks" (Sprite). Then we followed it all up with a hefty bug hunt, bagging many worms and an occasional rolly polly that hadn't been washed away from yesterday's rain.
During the day, a few distinct impressions fell upon me. The first was that lil' James would be okay. And that this new little brother would actually help him feel more special than he is now because he has someone to help take care of and to be an example to. He will rise to the opportunity and grow in ways I could not imagine.
The second was that I needed to remember to always discipline with love and kindness. Especially during these tender months. I have found myself from time to time getting frustrated with his typical shortcomings after a stressful day at work and this random emotional breakdown was a great reminder to me about what's really important in this life. So as James poured a bunch of little rocks from the rock pit (our ghetto version of a sandpit) on to the cement patio, something I have asked time and time again for him not to do, instead of getting angry, I smiled and politely asked him to help me clean it up.
He promptly smiled and said, "Okay dad, let's do it!"
As simple as it sounds, it was a really great and profound moment.
Truth is, he's an amazing little kid with a huge personality. He's extremely tender and sensitive. He's still a typical rowdy boy, but he's no stranger to kindness.
He'll be an incredible father someday. And, thanks to Graham, he'll get a little practice on the way.
Monday, April 26, 2010
The dude in the middle.
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
It's been a very long, yet very rewarding day.
Today, at around 6:18pm, our third child was born into the world. 7 lbs 12 oz, 21.5 inches. Happy and healthy. However, we have yet to figure out his name. It's become quite the conundrum. We cannot leave the hospital until we've agreed to something. In the meantime, here is a quick snap of the lil' dude with no name.
Friday, April 09, 2010
I can't seem to hold her back.
As much as I try, I just can't seem to keep Berlin from getting older and bigger. I want her to always stay my little girl. But today, I came home from work only to be met with a huge smile. A huge smile that was one tooth less than the smile I'm used to seeing.
After I shared in her excitement for such a milestone I asked her to promise me she would never leave. She gave me a hug and promised that she would always live with me.
Even after she gets married.
Which, apparently, is going to happen when she's ten.